The Real Walk

So, It's been 6 DAYS since I posted here, but I haven't forgotten you! In fact I have something very interesting to share with you that God showed me.

I always hear how life is a "walk". It the "Strait and Narrow", or the "endless journey", even the "road less traveled by"... no, wait, that's Shakespeare. That's why I titled this blog "My Random Walk".

I would describe my walk with God as random. He shows me stuff at odd times (or at the perfect time) and he helps me get through, teach others, and feel better through His words. But He describes the same walk much differently.

He said I put myself in the place of Jesus. Trying to carry a 100+ lb. cross to a hill I can't even see. I can't see it because my face has been so beaten, my left eye is swollen shut, Satan's spit has filled the vision of the other one. The gaping holes in my back cry in agony with every step, and my whole body screams with horror at the sudden pain of an unexpected fall that hurls me to earth once again. He said "You remember all you've learned about Jesus' pain as He died for you? With every 'mistake' you make you put your spirit through that pain, as you try to carry your own cross and you own problems. Your walk is made difficult by yourself and your actions."

I hate it when He gets so real with me. He never ceases to show me what I've done or need to do in the most amazing (and in this case disgusting) object lessons. I've decided to change my walk. It won't be random (but I won't change the name of this blog) and it wont be painful. It will be determined and reliant on my Savior. I can't carry that cross anymore, Christ knew that 2008 years ago, so I've got to give it to him. It sounds easy, "Just give your cares to God, no big, right?" Wrong. We, as humans (though it's no excuse), want to be in control. But we can't be. God can run your life much better than you can.

I'm giving up the steering wheel. Turning in the reigns. Giving God my feet. I'm ready to travel the Real Walk. I can't wait to see where it gets me...